Well, it's that time of year >YET AGAIN<....damn. I haven't been on DA because my CAD business has picked up dramatically and after working 60-70 hours a week I'm a little lacking in the want to do anything except sleep department. This time of year jewelers tend to fall off the face of the earth and do not typically reappear until after Valentines day so if anyone needs to contact me you can message me at: seeker212121@yahoo.com, as I check that several times a week normally, otherwise I'll be scarce for awhile.

My family and I went to an amusement park this week since we weren't able to take a vacation this year. Everything was fine until one of the rollercoasters tried to remove my left kidney. A bruised kidney and ribs is not fun. So, while my kids had fun I didn't get to ride the coasters like I wanted to. I guess this will be an excuse to go back and try again.

OK. So I know I'm not the most socially adept person out there but this has me totally bewildered.I posted a pic titled "sapphire ring CAD/CAM render" and someone faved it. I thanked him and we bantered back and forth a bit. The next day there was a note from him saying I had made him look like a fool. ???????? I reread the exchange several times and for the life of me cannot figure out where anything I said would make him look foolish. I apologized since I didn't intend any insult but WTF!?!? Oh well. Some days you're the pigeon, some days you're the statue.

Well, here we are almost mid May and in Indianapolis that can only mean 500 fever. This will be the 100th running of the Indianapolis 500 and surely a merry time will be had by all. For those of you who have never been, Saturday, the day before the race, is one of the biggest parties going, and is the time to be on site and enjoy the carnival atmosphere, eat and drink beer till it spews out your nose. Other refreshments of questionable legality are also plentiful, but you must beware of the undercover police as if they offer you a ride downtown you will be there until Monday morning before you can make bail.(seriously)
As someone who has lived most my life in Indianapolis and lived within walking distance of the track almost 30 of those years let me just say that if you aren't going to the race this is not a day for the novice to be out and about on the west side. Traffic is like a tsunami in slow motion, all main streets are one way in to the track until about 10:00 am and one way out after, until 6:00pm. You better know the back streets if you are out and want to get home!
All in all, Indianapolis is a great town to live in. As the 10th largest city in the U.S. we still retain a lot of small town friendliness and sense of community. Now if we could just do something about the winter cold and snow....

..Not that any of them would be good ones.
When I was younger I suffered what I can only describe as a emptiness in the center of my being. I look around now and see SO many others afflicted with this same condition. I tried for years to fill this nothing with the standard things...material possessions, money, hobbies, drugs, sex, chaos, reckless behavior, yada, yada and of course it only made the nothing go away for a short while. The despair becomes so deep you almost don't know how to even breathe anymore. I think I was about 30 when I realized that "STUFF" didn't make me happy for very long and I decided I had to fix this nothing because I couldn't keep on this way.
Over my life I've come to several COSMIC TRUTHS and I say this because they hold true in all situations.
1. God gave you the gift of choice. Whether we realize it or not, everything we do is a personal choice. Even if So/and/So did THIS and made you have to do THAT, YOU still made the choice. NO ONE ELSE MADE YOU. You could have always said no.
2. God gave you the gift of choice, but He didn't promise you they would all be easy or good choices. (Frankly they usually suck major ass)You still have a choice, even not choosing is a choice.
3. >NO< IS A VALID CHOICE. We forget this frequently.
4. All choices boil down to essentially 3 options:
A.Stay as you are and deal with the trauma that may cause.
B.Leave and deal with the trauma that may cause.
C.Change the way you look at things and deal with the trauma that may cause. (sad but true)
I chose C. and still exercise that option daily to deal with the many annoyances both large and small in my life. I understand now that no one else can make me happy except me, and even though the nothingness still exists in me it is much smaller now and I find I'm actually happy in my life even with all the daily crap.
Fall in the Light. He'll catch you.